4.07.2011
family time....quick post.
hey guys...I am posting late tonight...watched tangled with my kids.. it was truly good. It's been a while since I watched an animated feature that I didn't grimace at having to go watch. So, sitting down tonight with my nine year old I assumed it would be something I would enjoy watching her watch. It was a good movie right up to the point (spoiler alert!) That he cut her hair off...then it was a great movie. It was wonderful selflessness, not a trait often seen. calories in at 1630 calorie burn 725 (epic!) weight maintained for a 95 lb woman...whoot! lol. I love big burns. Have a great night guys!' Hugs, Chris 145.5
4.06.2011
one more hour....
You have heard the question "What would you do if you had one day left?'
How about one week?
One year?
What if you knew with certainty that you had five years left.
What would you do differently.
I was thinking about this..and thought..
well, what would I do If I had one hour left
(or course I thought this on the way to the gym)
I thought...I sure wouldn't be headed to the gym...but since that whole hour left thing wasn't a certainty, thought I would go get my workout in..
lol.
but,
If I had one hour left..
I would go home...and sit with my kids and hold them and tell them I love them.
I would tell them what I personally think is the most important thing in life
faith in God.
second..
never quit or give up on your dreams.
Third
Love.
That's it...
Then I would tell my husband how much I loved him.
What a difference he has made for me.
call my family and do the same.
This is why, when bad things happen....people will scrawl in blood their last words to friends and family.
It's that important...because we don't say it every day.
because we assume we have more than one day....
that we won't be grocery shopping...or going to school...or doing our errands and have a tsunami come and strip our family out from under us...
or have a car cross the median and kill our loved ones.
or a tornado smash our house to pieces.
We can't live that way all the time...we'd be wrecks.
But we don't have to...
just for today....call the people you love and tell them what they mean to you.
I have no idea what brought this one...
I was just thinking of it...it's probably the news.
I know one thing for sure.
I am glad I decided a year and some odd months ago to get better.
If I hadn't I would still be fat and miserable...not taking hold of every part of my life and living.
Big hugs.
I was explaining to my oldest daughter that we all die. She wanted to know what was the point of living if you didn't accomplish what you set out to do...
I said "What is the point of living if you don't enjoy life before you accomplish everything?
I said..You could NOT be here.
every day is a chance to experience things....the things we accomplish are important...
but living each day as if it's your last day...is the best thing you can do with the gift God gave you.
Yes. strive towards your goals..
But remember to live today.
Have a great night.
calories in 1562
calories expended in exercise 350
weight maintained for 120 lb woman.
Chris out.
145.5
How about one week?
One year?
What if you knew with certainty that you had five years left.
What would you do differently.
I was thinking about this..and thought..
well, what would I do If I had one hour left
(or course I thought this on the way to the gym)
I thought...I sure wouldn't be headed to the gym...but since that whole hour left thing wasn't a certainty, thought I would go get my workout in..
lol.
but,
If I had one hour left..
I would go home...and sit with my kids and hold them and tell them I love them.
I would tell them what I personally think is the most important thing in life
faith in God.
second..
never quit or give up on your dreams.
Third
Love.
That's it...
Then I would tell my husband how much I loved him.
What a difference he has made for me.
call my family and do the same.
This is why, when bad things happen....people will scrawl in blood their last words to friends and family.
It's that important...because we don't say it every day.
because we assume we have more than one day....
that we won't be grocery shopping...or going to school...or doing our errands and have a tsunami come and strip our family out from under us...
or have a car cross the median and kill our loved ones.
or a tornado smash our house to pieces.
We can't live that way all the time...we'd be wrecks.
But we don't have to...
just for today....call the people you love and tell them what they mean to you.
I have no idea what brought this one...
I was just thinking of it...it's probably the news.
I know one thing for sure.
I am glad I decided a year and some odd months ago to get better.
If I hadn't I would still be fat and miserable...not taking hold of every part of my life and living.
Big hugs.
I was explaining to my oldest daughter that we all die. She wanted to know what was the point of living if you didn't accomplish what you set out to do...
I said "What is the point of living if you don't enjoy life before you accomplish everything?
I said..You could NOT be here.
every day is a chance to experience things....the things we accomplish are important...
but living each day as if it's your last day...is the best thing you can do with the gift God gave you.
Yes. strive towards your goals..
But remember to live today.
Have a great night.
calories in 1562
calories expended in exercise 350
weight maintained for 120 lb woman.
Chris out.
145.5
4.05.2011
My first day of being a moderate.....
okay...
I ate 1720 calories today and burned 530. ..which according to my calculations puts at maintenance for a 120 lb woman. It wasn't quite the deficit I wanted...but not too bad seeing as how Tuesdays are one of my long days...from 6 till 11 or 12 at night. Sundays are the same way...long.
I may do 1700 on sunday and tuesday and 1500 on wednesdays and fridays...I am shooting for an average of 1600 6 days a week and 2200-2400 on sundays....this will maintain around 132 lbs for the amount of exercise I do. I should lose on average 1 to 2 pounds a month.
At this calorie range...there is really NOTHING you can't have in moderation every day....just not tons and all you may think of...
It is very strange trying to switch gears from 'nope can't eat that' to...
well, I can have a half cup. lol.
It's also hard to stop at a half a cup sometimes....but that is where the prior training kicks in.
Saying no to nearly everything for two years has it's benefits.
Like I had 8 peach gummies today.
and gave the rest to my kids....
These are my favorite candies...
here they are
I used to be able to hose a bag of these...and still could. But won't.
Each gummy is about 23 calories.
Here is a picture i took the day before yesterday.
I took it to remind myself that I am not fat.
You can get so wrapped up in losing weight that you can lose focus on what you actually look like.
I have also been wanting to try to eat normally for a while.
I am still counting calories etc.
But doing things like adding potatoes or noodles or rice, Not loads...A SERVING (hence the slightly higher calorie counts.)
Finding out what all sorts of meals look like when kept within a calorie budget of 1600-1700 calories......Eating special Sunday meals with a calorie cap of 2200 to 2400.
going to a bar b que and having a little bit of this and that...and stopping.
It is harder than just saying NO.
Keeping to my healthy options 80 to 90 percent of the time and adding a few higher calorie options.
reeling in the gym time...more home time...but still putting in my 'workout duty'.
Three days a week at the gym (elliptical, upper body weights, situps) and three at home walking a minimum of 3.5 miles each walking day...
It's a duty to myself.
I will weigh in once a month officially...daily or every other day for a while till I get more comfortable with what I am doing. It will take some getting used to.
From here on out, as a method of accountability....I will be posting my weight below my name and weighing in publicly on the first of the month. I will do this for at least the coming year.
I will be doing all this till it becomes 'habit'.
Have a great night guys,
Chris out.
145.5 lbs.
I ate 1720 calories today and burned 530. ..which according to my calculations puts at maintenance for a 120 lb woman. It wasn't quite the deficit I wanted...but not too bad seeing as how Tuesdays are one of my long days...from 6 till 11 or 12 at night. Sundays are the same way...long.
I may do 1700 on sunday and tuesday and 1500 on wednesdays and fridays...I am shooting for an average of 1600 6 days a week and 2200-2400 on sundays....this will maintain around 132 lbs for the amount of exercise I do. I should lose on average 1 to 2 pounds a month.
At this calorie range...there is really NOTHING you can't have in moderation every day....just not tons and all you may think of...
It is very strange trying to switch gears from 'nope can't eat that' to...
well, I can have a half cup. lol.
It's also hard to stop at a half a cup sometimes....but that is where the prior training kicks in.
Saying no to nearly everything for two years has it's benefits.
Like I had 8 peach gummies today.
and gave the rest to my kids....
These are my favorite candies...
here they are
I used to be able to hose a bag of these...and still could. But won't.
Each gummy is about 23 calories.
Here is a picture i took the day before yesterday.
I took it to remind myself that I am not fat.
You can get so wrapped up in losing weight that you can lose focus on what you actually look like.
I have also been wanting to try to eat normally for a while.
I am still counting calories etc.
But doing things like adding potatoes or noodles or rice, Not loads...A SERVING (hence the slightly higher calorie counts.)
Finding out what all sorts of meals look like when kept within a calorie budget of 1600-1700 calories......Eating special Sunday meals with a calorie cap of 2200 to 2400.
going to a bar b que and having a little bit of this and that...and stopping.
It is harder than just saying NO.
Keeping to my healthy options 80 to 90 percent of the time and adding a few higher calorie options.
reeling in the gym time...more home time...but still putting in my 'workout duty'.
Three days a week at the gym (elliptical, upper body weights, situps) and three at home walking a minimum of 3.5 miles each walking day...
It's a duty to myself.
I will weigh in once a month officially...daily or every other day for a while till I get more comfortable with what I am doing. It will take some getting used to.
From here on out, as a method of accountability....I will be posting my weight below my name and weighing in publicly on the first of the month. I will do this for at least the coming year.
I will be doing all this till it becomes 'habit'.
Have a great night guys,
Chris out.
145.5 lbs.
4.04.2011
How weight loss is like cleaning your lint trap.
hello all, I am typing this from our downstairs computer....my laptop seems to have hit the heavenly highway. It may be fixable, we'll see. However, if this government shutdown happens..my husband may not be recieving his retirement pay. Does this mean we don't have to pay taxes. ????? Why should we pay taxes to a government that fails to operate. okay.. I a m done. swore I woudn't do this anymore. *confederations of dunces...mutter, mutter, mutter....* anywhoozle. I decided something yesterday. I have been having a hard time having the diet mentality lately. Probably because I am thiiiiiisssss close to normal. I will be doing this for two years on may 4th (official weigh in May 18th). I realized that I have been flipping and flopping all over the place lately because I felt I 'should' be going after a number with all my might. ....fighting for the last 5 pounds to normal. And I am going to get there and lower. But I think I was trying to do it quickly more for 'you'...than for me. Sometimes I think we get caught up in trying to inspire... then what I started this whole thing for...which was to get healthy. I didn't set some sort of time limit on me when I started... I was just hoping to be less fat than when I started. And I am...considerably so. My needs are changing. I need to refocus on my family while holding on to and moving forward with my progress. Last month when I upped my calories I gave myself permission on several occasions to go over my calorie limit. Saying in my head "I will simply hit it hard core next week'. Knowing I could. I have done it for almost two years. Instead I have to learn to develop a new kind of deliberateness about my food intake. 'moderation'. moderation in food. moderation in exercise. But mostly moderation in food. moderation. ack. Not something I have ever excelled at.. like putting the lid back on the toothpaste... or sharpening your mower blades... or thoroughly cleaning your lint trap. Being aware of your food. Being aware of your exercise level. Moderating it daily. It's not particularly exciting. Allowing a higher calorie day once a week, but no blow outs. moderating your higher calorie days...which I have never done before. yeah. This is where the rubber meets the road. Interesting...going back this is what I wrote at the beginning (about a month in) to my journey... June 5th, 2009 " I need to feel as normal as possible and I need to make this a normal part of my life. That means "splurge days" will have to be replaced with eating a slightly higher calorie day two or three days out of every month. I will start this part of the process around month six or seven. Right now, psychologically, I need a "splurge" day. In time I think I can move to eating foods I love in moderation and begin to incorporate the higher calorie items in with my new mostly healthy choices. we will see." I think I knew from the get go...and, I have resisted all along, any sort of quick fix mentality. The quick fix mentality was a prime suspect in all previous dieting failures. I wanted this time to be the last time. So if it comes off at 2 pounds a month... WHAT DOES IT MATTER. So long as it doesn't come ON at two pounds a month. I am healthy...now it's just a matter of degrees. The thin beige line. lmao. And a good friend and frequent reader...mr. putz..was afraid I would give up eating. You know, I had a while there where I still felt fat. In fact I had it yesterday...which was why I took a picture and put it on my facebook page. I think you can get so obsessed with an image in your head that you can go off the other edge. anorexia or bulimia. At some point, being healthy, but not perfect has got to be okay. So...I will get there. by moderating my eating. By exercising six days a week and resting on the seventh. By being consistent. btw. I cleaned my lint trap in my dryer today....with a toothbrush. Have a great night guys! Chris out.
4.02.2011
Burning your metaphorical bridges.
okay,
So....my contention is that 90 percent of this struggle is mental....
You have got to burn your bridges...
or even better....
burn your boats once you hit your destination so there is no way back and you must adapt.
With drug use, it's pretty easy...not that stopping the drugs is easy...
but cutting it out of your life is pretty black and white.
You don't buy them, you don't use them.
That's it.
Food.
Not so much..
every single one of us is going to come to a point where we are going to have to learn to deal with food again.
Yes, we can have a rigorous plan..
follow it.
But eventually we will have to go back to eating with our families...
I have to set my mind that my calorie cap is as much in effect now as it ever was...
that my higher calorie days need to be planned...
And there is no going back.
But eventually it will come to a point where we have to draw a forever line.
I have drawn several of them over time...
My first forever line was..."I will never be asleep in regards to what I put in my mouth again'.
My second "I will never ever go over 200 pounds again."
My third "I will never be in woman's sizes again".
(This one I did with flair...I burned all my 1x, 2x, and 3x pants)
Then...
I will never be over the tens..
180
170
160
150
You see, I set my personal rubicon at 150 after I crossed 200.
I was 156 for much of my teen years.
I was 138 lbs BRIEFLY in the army.
I have set my new personal rubicon.
I will never go over 140 lbs again.
That is 'normal' for me.
ever...
Once I cross that line. That's it..barring pregnancy.
or being impaled by a large immovable object.
So, in the spirit of that pledge...
I burned my bridge.
I gave away my safety pants.
A pair of size 12's.
I only have 10's and belows...
once I cross 140-the 10's go.
and all I will have left is the 8's...I get too big..I am naked.
because I am not made of money. lol.
I didn't want safe passage back to overwieghtsville.
I want a one way ticket to normalton..
I do want this.
For me.
For no one but me.
It isn't a value judgement on the 150's...it has nothing to do with anyone but me...
and I have decided.
I weighed in at 145.5 this morning...
goodbye half pound of fat...
another pound and a half will get rid of the rest of the unwanted weight, and then it's on to the 140 rubicon.
Have a great night guys,
Chris out.
So....my contention is that 90 percent of this struggle is mental....
You have got to burn your bridges...
or even better....
burn your boats once you hit your destination so there is no way back and you must adapt.
With drug use, it's pretty easy...not that stopping the drugs is easy...
but cutting it out of your life is pretty black and white.
You don't buy them, you don't use them.
That's it.
Food.
Not so much..
every single one of us is going to come to a point where we are going to have to learn to deal with food again.
Yes, we can have a rigorous plan..
follow it.
But eventually we will have to go back to eating with our families...
I have to set my mind that my calorie cap is as much in effect now as it ever was...
that my higher calorie days need to be planned...
And there is no going back.
But eventually it will come to a point where we have to draw a forever line.
I have drawn several of them over time...
My first forever line was..."I will never be asleep in regards to what I put in my mouth again'.
My second "I will never ever go over 200 pounds again."
My third "I will never be in woman's sizes again".
(This one I did with flair...I burned all my 1x, 2x, and 3x pants)
Then...
I will never be over the tens..
180
170
160
150
You see, I set my personal rubicon at 150 after I crossed 200.
I was 156 for much of my teen years.
I was 138 lbs BRIEFLY in the army.
I have set my new personal rubicon.
I will never go over 140 lbs again.
That is 'normal' for me.
ever...
Once I cross that line. That's it..barring pregnancy.
or being impaled by a large immovable object.
So, in the spirit of that pledge...
I burned my bridge.
I gave away my safety pants.
A pair of size 12's.
I only have 10's and belows...
once I cross 140-the 10's go.
and all I will have left is the 8's...I get too big..I am naked.
because I am not made of money. lol.
I didn't want safe passage back to overwieghtsville.
I want a one way ticket to normalton..
I do want this.
For me.
For no one but me.
It isn't a value judgement on the 150's...it has nothing to do with anyone but me...
and I have decided.
I weighed in at 145.5 this morning...
goodbye half pound of fat...
another pound and a half will get rid of the rest of the unwanted weight, and then it's on to the 140 rubicon.
Have a great night guys,
Chris out.
4.01.2011
If you want to lose weight...go to SLEEP.
Hey all,
Back to basics over here.
Did my walk today...didn't do my situps because I forgot to, but did help set some post holes.
I now remember how I did NOT eat for so long...
I slept.
Alot.
It works.
If you are sleeping, working out or eating your allotted food....you can't over eat...
especially if you are sleeping during prime eating hours...
8-11 for me.
I am about to head off to bed.
lol.
I don't know about you all, but I was impressed Kate hacked my blog.
I couldn't have done that at 17.
So, kudos Kate.
Have a great night guys..
back to the gym tomorrow.
Have a good one.
Chris out.
Back to basics over here.
Did my walk today...didn't do my situps because I forgot to, but did help set some post holes.
I now remember how I did NOT eat for so long...
I slept.
Alot.
It works.
If you are sleeping, working out or eating your allotted food....you can't over eat...
especially if you are sleeping during prime eating hours...
8-11 for me.
I am about to head off to bed.
lol.
I don't know about you all, but I was impressed Kate hacked my blog.
I couldn't have done that at 17.
So, kudos Kate.
Have a great night guys..
back to the gym tomorrow.
Have a good one.
Chris out.
Hijacked!
Muahahahahaha! Hello unsuspecting bloggers! Who am I you might ask? You can call me the April fools bandit! I realized with heavy heart last year that I had neglected to play a prank on poor unsuspecting Chris, so I'm making up for it this year. Ah
April Fools, the one day you can get away with pranks. I think we require a random picture.
Remember children don't play with knives, be kind to your elders, and trip people whenever possible. Have a Happy APRIL FOOLS day!
In the spirit of good fun, I will leave this...world, meet my oldest daughter who apparently hijacked my blog because she is a computer nerd...lol. That's okay, she is smart and someday will buy me a retirement home in boca.
In the spirit of good fun, I will leave this...world, meet my oldest daughter who apparently hijacked my blog because she is a computer nerd...lol. That's okay, she is smart and someday will buy me a retirement home in boca.
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