So two days ago I went to the women's resource center...
They offer free computer classes and career counseling.
I have orientation tomorrow.
The first step in fixing an issue is acquiring leverage.
Just like with weight loss..
you need a plan.
My plan is to begin acquiring skills to enter the workforce.
I have no idea how to operate any of the windows office applications.
From reading different job descriptions, it would seem these are mandatory.
So, tomorrow I have an appointment for orientation.
Then I can begin classes.
They have seminars about different jobs that are available...interviewing techniques...building a resume...
In the meantime, I have found that the simple application of action vs. inaction causes attitudes to readjust and realign.
That doesn't change my course of action.
I have come to the conclusion that if you want respect, you need to put yourself in a position of power...and power comes with assets and leverage.
assets and leverage come with options.
I am creating them.
I am no quitter, and I am willing to make all of my relationships work.
But on an equal basis...as an equal partnership.
Never again as some sort of 'subordinate'.
I had a fantastic workout...an hour to an hour and a half...
I have been on track with calories since my personal revelation.
I want to be fit and healthy and lookin' good.
I want to be educated, strong and independently financially stable.
I am moving forward on all fronts.
I choose to view this interlude as the kind of wake up call that changes my life for the better.
Because I choose to.
I will keep you all informed.