I have had a realization...it only happened recently.
I has a lot to do with my last post.
I have invited into my life, people who are never happy with the status quo.
And that is great.
I like people who are always pushing for their own betterment.
But you know what.
It's okay to like yourself right now.
I know someone who is never happy with themselves..
and they have set their standard for life, for happiness..so high..
That there is no way to meet it.
And they have not only placed this expectation on themselves..
but on me, and on others.
And when I was younger..
I felt like I 'needed' to be pushed..
because deep down inside of me..
was a deep sense of inferiority.
I felt flawed in fundamental ways.
But a few months ago..
I began to resent the nitpicking..
the constant criticism.
And I realized...
that sometimes, when things weren't done..
or weren't okay..
that it was because I was exhausted.
And I am allowed to be exhausted.
I am allowed to be tired.
and sometimes I am allowed to be less than 100 percent.
I don't need to be told what to do all the time.
I know what to do..
if it isn't getting done...that is because I am at the end of my rope.
And sometimes you have to let things go for abit..
because there is just too much on your plate.
And learning to look a person in the face and say..
I don't need your criticism, I need your friendship and support..
and feeling that I deserve it.
Because I have been a good friend...and I have cut the other person slack...
is a huge step in owning myself and the rights to me, my mind, my space and my life.
I don't have to earn someone's love via spectacular performance.
They either love me or they don't.
They are either my friend or they aren't.
If I am a good, kind and loving support to them..
I should expect the same in return.
I am worthy of love...
I will never be perfect.
As Jesus said "I desire mercy, not sacrifice'...
so should your friends.
you of them
them of you.