Hello all...Today is three years since I began to weigh myself...my real three year anniversary is actually May 4th. I found a journal I wrote my first month on my diet. It was amazing and enlightening. I ate around 1700 to 1800 the first month or two...my focus was really on counting the calories and exercising daily....
my favorite blurb....Was the day I wrote..."Two mile walk no longer difficult enough, will either have to make it longer or up the intensity."
This was two weeks after I wrote "walked 2.6 miles today...it was difficult but I did it."
Today I would think a 2.6 mile walk was incidental to daily activity.
I walked three miles yesterday and considered it fluffing off.
I wrote about how I felt..
I wrote about asserting myself in different situations where previously I wouldn't have...
It was very motivating.
It seems so long ago.
I am a different person.
I was working out today with a good friend..
She knew me back when I was obese.
She said "You are a totally different person, you never used to talk..you used to stay to yourself."
I get out there much more now.
I am really living.
I used to just hide inside my house..watch tv and eat.
Now I go to the gym....have friends and hobbies...activities...
While I might be afraid to try new things...I do it anyways.
I do know that at the top of each page I wrote...
One day Closer.
One day closer....and today I am here...
Do I want to lose more weight?
Will it change me as a person the same way that 110 pounds has?
This weight is incidental...it's cosmetic.
That weight was life changing.
It was more than a physical weight..
It was a wall and a blanket.
It was a comfort and a chain....
but it was a false comfort.
I let it go and now am so happy.
Letting go of the weight involved more than physical weight.
It was emotional weight that was weighing me down as well.
And I have truly let that go too.
Begin, go on and don't quit till you get to your destination.
Three years from now...where will you be..
You really do decide.