Tomorrow is weigh in! Wow, time goes so fast..
I have no idea how many people are still following or doing this.
I have been very remiss in this the last two weeks.
But I am back now..
My response to my question!
This was one of the first ways I figured out something was very very wrong.
I was at my oldest daughter's karate class..
and I noticed how passionate the teacher was about what he was doing.
And at first I was really annoyed.
(That should have been a prime intel indicator right there that I wasn't happy in my own life...when you are unhappy...happy people irritate the crap out of you.)
I was thinking...
Why is he soooo fricking happy?
Then I realized one day, it was because he loved what he was doing.
It wasn't a chore to him...or just a job.
It was his passion.
Then I looked inside and realized that I felt passionate about NOTHING.
That set me to asking all the question I have been asking myself here.
And if you answered that question with a big fat nothing.
I would now like you to go back to the other answers you gave and find out how much life you are living that is yours.
My whole life had been divied up to others.
Everyone else knew what they needed and wanted...
so I thought "Well, I will just make their wants, needs and dreams come true."
And I stopped having my own.
Having your own means taking time for you.
It means trying and maybe failing...
It means you have to feel..and not numb out.
sometimes we are so buried we don't even know we are buried.
We think numbed out and feeling nothing is the way it's supposed to be..
and when we do try to feel...the pain of our surroundings and the choices we have made can drive us BACK into our shells.
Instead...you have to make a decision.
To really live, you have to decide to find something you love.
It doesn't matter if it's just listening to music..or reading a book.
Once a day make some time for that.
It's part of making sure you are living a life...not a life sentence.
Weigh in is tomorrow.
Mine will suck.
But so be it...back on the krab and down the scale.
My last two days have been on track and banging.
Great exercise...great food intake!
Have a great night guys!