Ever say that...
only to wake up and NOT do better.
about a week ago I was into week 2 of this phenomenon....
I was still exercising...but each night was eating over my alotted calories by 200 to 300 calories...
I had excuses...
I am getting the house in order...
I am tired....
I am too busy to cook....
I'LL DO BETTER TOMORROW.
So last friday night...as I was laying in bed and feeling flabby...
I said to myself "you can do better tomorrow until you are 262 lbs. again.
Is that what you want?"
I love the conversations I have with me...I always recieve an answer.
Obviously not.
Two years down the tubes would be a big waste of time....
I was dealing with a lot of mental issues and nightmares...
I was dealing with nearly two years of house neglect...paint that needed to be applied...
walls that needed to be washed etc.
But I can see how two weeks of moderately bad eating can lead to a spiral of weight gain.
After only 2 weeks I was more tired....the excuses grew more plentiful..
and not counting every bite seemed more logical all the time.
Dangerous ground.
I had to pull myself back in and say
Self....you can do this.
You can start NOW and stop eating whatever suits your fancy...
and plop..
out of my mouth plopped 5 chewed up pecans...
right into the wastebasket.
So If you have been on a 'break'.
focusing on other things.
etc.
But you know in your heart of hearts it is a rebellion against thinking about 'it'...
You can hop right back on the horse...right now...
Not tomorrow....
Tomorrow is just an excuse to keep eating.
So,
giddyup.
Chris out.
17 comments:
Ah, the beauty of being able to start anew anytime. It is so simple and so freeing.
Probably one of the reasons I knew I was capable of losing weight as soon as I started reading you, and I had never even gotten up the guts to try before...
That little bit of moderation and then reeling back in seems pretty normal and common sense to me.
Every day is a new opportunity to get it right. You can't ever start over, but you can always start from where you are where you are. There is freedom in that if you will give it to yourself.
I swear that my brain is seriously screwed. Did you read what I just wrote? How did I not know that I already wrote where you are one time? I swear that my brain is seriously screwy. I think it is getting better and then I do this sort of thing. Well, I continue to do this sort of thing. Something is unhinged up there. But that is not the point of this blog. Just wanted you to know that I noticed my error. Not totally clueless. Just saw it after I posted it.
"...and not counting every bite seemed more logical all the time."
Yep, I was just having that same conversation with Ms. Self tonight, about stopping with the excuses and getting back to consistently tracking them thar calories.
So... dittos here. :-)
That slippery slope can be very slippy indeed! Sometimes I'm thinking "why do I bother, what difference does it make" then a week later my clothes are digging into my flesh and THEN I remember! Hmm...I threw out all my fat clothes and I can't afford to buy them all over again....
"The Night Lie" from back in March over at my place talks about this. It's from Gwen Shamblin at Weigh Down Workshop. She is very convicting and this post from her work hits the nail on the head. Why do we fall for the same lies over and over? We seem to have an intricate set of lies that work on us. At least we can recognize the pattern sooner than before. Keep at it. This is our battle for life.
So true. It can't be tomorrow - it has to be right now!
Love this post and soo true! It's a clever little lie disguised as a promise! I've been struggling with it too. Thanks for this post!
I've done this too much but these days I'm changing my tune. I say, "I'm going to do better just for today. Even if it's just one thing that's better."
Yep for me it's back to counting calories. If I really want to drop these few lbs I need to work hard and stop giving myself permission to do what I want. I can say after almost 4 yrs I am a "get right back on the wagon NOW" type person so even if I screw up at breakfast I know the next thing I put in my mouth can be healthy. I think with time we will figure it out. Just as long as we stay real with ourselves.
The problem with tomorrow is that it's today when it gets here.
Yeah, I'll take freedom today over maybe-free tommorrow.
Glad you didn't judge yourself, instead you became completely aware of what was happening, and you understood that actions occur NOW.
You mentioned "REBELLION" and said against thinking about "it" ~ the word rebellion hit me. I realized when I become Ms First Sergeant telling me "this and this and this HAS to get done" - - - I REBEL all the way and EAT. I get my "reward" - I need a "treat" etc. Interesting hmm? Am I the only one that does this?
Sister, you are singing my song!!!
do you want to know how i was thinking about you a few days ago?????NO, well ok then<><><><>well any whozle i will tell you anyway<><><>i was thinking first of all how absolutelely imposssible of a job you did with your weight lass, and i was thinking how glad you did us through all those days<><>><><>no really the insight you have are marvelous but i wouldn't have listened before your astounding feat of weight loss<<>><<><>i love you chris<><><>i thinkd before and after the weight loss
Great post! I'm not there..yet, but so could be! I am super tired and stressed! I so want to coast, but just can't allow myself. I really want to!! But I won't. This is my internal conversation with myself.
Keep on fighting my Friend!!
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This post is exactly what I need! Thanks Chris :)
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