that's quite the title.
Before I go any further I would like to thank Carla a.k.a Mizfit again, for allowing me to express myself to new people.
Thank you Carla.
I was asked what the reactions to my weight loss were when I went home.
They were very nice and kind.
Lots of wows! and you look fantastics!
It was nice.
But as I am sure other people have run into...it wasn't what I expected.
I expected to feel validated.
But when I felt the same. I realized every bit of validation I needed I had already given myself.
I don't feel like a fat person in a thin persons body.
I feel thin and healthy.
I see myself as thin and healthy.
They were telling me things I already knew.
Almost like they were saying...Hey, you have brown eyes.
I think my warped brain has been cured.
I am not surprised by mirrors or my reflection in windows.
It's my new normal.
My life did not suddenly transform into a wonderland here-to-fore limited only to the thin among us.
It's the same..I'm just thinner and able to do more.
I go to the park.
I go swimming in a bathing suit..
(bought one at kohls and wore it at not only a relatives house, but at the pool on post two days ago.)
I felt completely normal in my bathing suit.
I didn't pull at it.
I like it.
The best part of all this is:
I feel normal.
I get flirted with.
I get stared at by men in other cars at lights, they smile or wave...I move on.
But after a while that's just a part of it all...and I am glad I am married.
Because quite frankly...
WHAT the h*ll happened to the men?
Just a question.
Stop wearing your pants around your ankles...and you aren't 16 so flip the lid around dork.
okay, mini rant done.
What does it all mean, this weight loss journey.
I am nearing completion.
My weight is coming off at a crawl but I am near 'normal'.
After that it's vanity weight.
I feel great daily.
The feeling of being tired and grossly out of place is long gone.
It means I am free.
There is no physical impediment in my way.
I can accomplish, physically, anything I really want to.
(Well apart from professional basketball, I'm no spud webb)
I have given myself a chance at a long healthy life.
I know I am capable of very difficult things.
I know that to accomplish big things...you sometimes just have to leap.
don't hem and haw.
Don't think too mUch.
Start by doing.
Let the rest follow.
Have a great night all.
For the next night or two I am going to bring back my playlist.
Just some stuff that reminds my of my teenage years.
How I felt back then hanging out and cruising with my friends.
Going back to where I grew up brought up all sorts of memories, and for the first time...most were good.
Have a great night guys.