Who I am now and Where I'll be tomorrow.
For some reason I have been digging the blog awards lately.
Maybe it's because my mind is going in so many different directions, but I am liking these things.
I recieved the oh my blog award a while back...and talked about my most embarrassing moment.
So the rules are I have to get excited...
then pick one of a number of options which I won't list now.
I am a rebel without a clue and rules are made to be broken..
so, I am breaking them.
I will write a soundtrack of the life I have chosen..
As I get older I realize more and more that dwelling on things we didn't have any control over is a major stumbling block to progress, AND to becoming the person you want to be.
So, If you are going to Dig it up...
Then deal with it.
Then bury it.
And never dig it up again.
Kill it dead...deader than dead...finish it.
The first part of my journey would be kind of Kelly clarksonish...
I spent my teen years moving away. I never let anybody inside my iron curtain.
I watched my mom take too much crap to give my whole heart to anyone.
I kept myself apart.
I dropped my iron curtain after the birth of second daughter.
I loved my oldest...her only with my whole heart.
But just knew because I loved her I would lose her and accepted that....
I knew nothing good could stay.
My husband I kept outside the inner heart.
only so far, no further.
I 'knew' better.
With my second daughter...who was born on July 14th, 2001.
I spent days just staring at her.
Then september 11th happened and I realized that the only thing that mattered was love.
we will all die.
So why waste time not loving.
Now, when I left home I also felt a bit kelly clarksonish..along with a bit of prince...
but mostly this...
Then I met my husband....
and it felt kind of like this...
And in the last four years has turned into this;
And then I had my children
And it felt just like this;
And now for the most important piece of this puzzle...
And he has been my linchpin from the time I could understand that there was something bigger than me.
It's always how I have felt about God.
This song is my relationship in a nutshell. I talk to him like I'd talk to my best friend.
well...that's pretty much it.
Tomorrow I have a guest post..so won't be posting here.
It's my first guest post talking about my 100 lbs lost and what I wanted to say about it.
It's at Mizfit.
Hugs to you all.
Have a great night.
Posted by Christine at 8:55 PM