So....my contention is that 90 percent of this struggle is mental....
You have got to burn your bridges...
or even better....
burn your boats once you hit your destination so there is no way back and you must adapt.
With drug use, it's pretty easy...not that stopping the drugs is easy...
but cutting it out of your life is pretty black and white.
You don't buy them, you don't use them.
Not so much..
every single one of us is going to come to a point where we are going to have to learn to deal with food again.
Yes, we can have a rigorous plan..
But eventually we will have to go back to eating with our families...
I have to set my mind that my calorie cap is as much in effect now as it ever was...
that my higher calorie days need to be planned...
And there is no going back.
But eventually it will come to a point where we have to draw a forever line.
I have drawn several of them over time...
My first forever line was..."I will never be asleep in regards to what I put in my mouth again'.
My second "I will never ever go over 200 pounds again."
My third "I will never be in woman's sizes again".
(This one I did with flair...I burned all my 1x, 2x, and 3x pants)
I will never be over the tens..
You see, I set my personal rubicon at 150 after I crossed 200.
I was 156 for much of my teen years.
I was 138 lbs BRIEFLY in the army.
I have set my new personal rubicon.
I will never go over 140 lbs again.
That is 'normal' for me.
Once I cross that line. That's it..barring pregnancy.
or being impaled by a large immovable object.
So, in the spirit of that pledge...
I burned my bridge.
I gave away my safety pants.
A pair of size 12's.
I only have 10's and belows...
once I cross 140-the 10's go.
and all I will have left is the 8's...I get too big..I am naked.
because I am not made of money. lol.
I didn't want safe passage back to overwieghtsville.
I want a one way ticket to normalton..
I do want this.
For no one but me.
It isn't a value judgement on the 150's...it has nothing to do with anyone but me...
and I have decided.
I weighed in at 145.5 this morning...
goodbye half pound of fat...
another pound and a half will get rid of the rest of the unwanted weight, and then it's on to the 140 rubicon.
Have a great night guys,