I am still a food addict. It's how I deal with my emotions. so... from here on out I will not be eating when I am upset. luckily I am not upset all the time or I would turn into an anorexic. But I did use my crappy day the other day as an excuse to bail on my food limit and eat too much. I still do it...apparently. It still happens and always will unless I make it my rule to not eat after a major upset. I am still not superior at sorting my feelings from hunger.... I was hungry when I started...but I didn't listen to my body and I ate till I felt sick. Something I haven't done in over a year and a half. I know as well as you do that this is never 'over'. two days ago was a good reminder. I also need to stop using my exercise a crutch to overeat. I need to get a handle on my excessive food consumption on high calorie days. ever hear of 'Give us this day our daily bread. I am all over the exercise. It's redefining my relationship with food that is going to take some work. modertaing my eating and leaving the dieting mentality has been revealing. I still have work to do. I am going to be living within the calories I earn each day until I get past the restrict and over eat pattern I have developed. I am still recovering... ack. I hope this doesn't depress anyone. I haven't gained weight. I haven't lost weight. I am holding steady and getting better day by day. In the meantime...I am getting my house in order...inside and out. I am not going to have anything left at the end of this that I don't love or use. project today....starting my seed beds for my garden.. painting my wall. doing my walk and situps. cleaning my art area and having a place for everything in my bedroom. Have a great night guys. Chris out.
Posted by Christine at 6:39 PM