weigh in...

Hey guys,
I had a good day today. I ate forty too many calories though...
so 1510.
It won't be problem tomorrow.
I had a very good burn in the gym.
I did 53 minutes on the elliptical and 5 on the new arc trainer...that thing is coooool.
I also did upper body weights.
I am so psyched about all the new equipment at the gym.
We have two other areas to exercise in now.
four more precors. It should be easier to get on the equipment now.
I burned a total of 650 calories...but with the excess food I lost 40 calories through through overconsumption of food so it is only 610 calories.
I will be doing the stairstepper and the bike tomorrow along with a two mile walk.
It should give me a nice 500 to 550 calorie deficit.
Now, on to weigh in...
I weighed in at 148....AT NIGHT.
When I weighed in at the start of this 'every day till may' exercise thing..I weighed in at 149 in the morning.
I weigh myself twice a day.
I have been weighing in at lower in the mornings but I am going back to my old way of doing things...waiting till I hit that weight at night for two consecutive nights in a row before 'calling' it.
Now, when I get to goal weight I will take my morning weight...I plan to hover somewhere between 132-135. It's generally a three pound variation from morning till night.
My body is really releasing this weight.
I think a couple months resetting my set point for my body may have turned out to be a good thing after all.
1 granola bar 190 calories
1 egg white omelette with 1/4th cup mozzerella cheese and 3 T. salsa 150 cal.
1 cup fage 150 cal.
2 and a half T honey 150 cal.
2 la tortilla factory tortillas 100
4 ounces 93 percent lean beef 160 cal.
1/2 cup lowfat chedder 160 cal.
1 tomato 30 cal.
2 chews 40 cal.
2 cups coffee 245 cal.
one candy cane 40 cal.
4 crackers 1 teaspoon butter 98 cal

total cals. 1513...my problem..I forgot to calculate my vitamin chews in the mix...ack.
oh well... onward and downward.

and tonight I just wanted to say a little something about empathy.
We have a tradition in this country of building people up and tearing them down..
and today while driving around I felt an unexpected jolt of something resembling pity for an entirely unexpected person.
John Edwards.
I know, I know.
I have thought every thought you are thinking.
But my thoughts today were this.
there is only one life to a customer.
He was married for over 30 years to one woman. They had children together, they loved each other..and in the end he was with her.
You don't live that long, and love that long without there being a whole lot more than romantic love sitting in that room at the end.
YOu have two friends in that room..one who hurt the other terribly.
And that is something he can never take back.
She looks stoic and noble (which she was)
She did herself nothing but honor and credit.
He has to live with it.
Knowing what he did and knowing his children know.
Knowing that when it counted most he let someone down in the worst way possible. I wouldn't want to be in his skin.
We are all human, and we all fail.
The biggest kick in the crotch is living with it.
Like my loose skin...or my memories of my failures in regards to some things I could have done better...or words I should never have said...
So, I intend to practice more empathy in the future and let God take care of the rest.
Even with my former stepfather. I have to let go of cracking him...
knowing life has done that already.
So, have a great one guys.


Amber said...

Congrats on the weight loss!
You'll be at goal in no time!
Now you can throw it in my face that you weigh less than I do!

Ah, I'll get there too, eventually. Good for you though! Keep it up!

Christine said...

Well, I know you will. The force is with you.

E. Jane said...

Great job on the weight loss. You're headed for your goal--no doubt. It is clear that your have found substitutes for favorite foods, based on the comment you left on my blog. Great idea, by the way! I think finding substitutes is a necessary tool for weight loss AND maintenance.

Also, your take on empathy is very powerful. I wonder if John Edwards will be able to find redemption in this life. If he genuinely deserves it, I hope he does--especially for his children's sake. It would be better for them if they could forgive him, if he deserves it, based on the person that he could become. Life's lesson can be very difficult, but wealth and power seem to sometimes bring out the worst in people.

Beth said...

Way to go on the weight loss. It's inspiring.

And yeah, we all have the burden of our own screw-ups to bear. No doubt if he gains a conscience, he will deeply regret the choices that he made in his lifetime. And that is a near unbearable burden at times.

Anonymous said...

First, Congratulations! your a weight loss warrior, you are!

And you're a champion of the heart, too. Re: John Edwards. I've had the same thoughts. When I heard he was at the house while his wife was dying, I thought the same things.

I've been married for 39 years. A lot of water under that bridge. But at the end of the day, love is remains in the room.

And as far as forgiveness? Well, no one deserves forgiveness. No one. That's why Jesus died. It's a free gift. I hope John accepts it and, then, walks well.


Unknown said...

wow! you are getting VERY Close to GOAL! 2011 will be OUR year for sure! :) whoohoo!

Sunshine's Heart said...

Empathy is a good thing. I try to practice that myself no matter what someone might have done. I don't excuse their bad behavior. It isn't my place to do that, but I do try to understand what might have happened to a person that causes them to behave badly.
Great job on the weight loss and exercise. I still hoping for the motivation to get myself into something regular.

Hanlie said...

It's awesome to see that you're still going strong! Good job!

I hear you on the empathy thing. Who are we to judge after all? Who are we to declare someone else's mistakes bigger than our own?