Hello all, I hit the gym...did good...today has been extremely busy.
I wanted to talk about something.
Most of you have been around a while and know me...in the internet sense.
At least know the me of the last two years.
I got on this weight loss train and drove it straight down.
A ball of fire.
mind and will set...
wow...what will power, what determination.
I sure am glad I don't have a side bar declaring my utter failures the fifteen previous years before I ever got on the internet.
If I had a sidebar detailing even say....the LAST 5 YEARS.
I am sure the first five or six months of my current weight loss efforts would have seemed an utter and complete failure.
You see, I started this current effort in May 2009.
Before I tried losing weight in 2005.
In 2005 I weighed 239 lbs. I dieted down to 219 lbs with atkins...It took me 6 months on induction to lose 20 lbs.
That is pathetic.
Then I got pregnant and miscarried and spiraled...and didn't even step on a scale for four years.
That's right...I regained that initial 20 and added 22 on top of it.
If I had had a sidebar...my weight would have looked something like this...
july 2005- 219
october 2005- miscarry
November 2005- absent from blogland and in a deeep dark depression
May 2009-262.4 lbs
SEPTEMBER 2009- 218 LBS.
That is five months in to my new battle....
That is a total loss over 4 years of PLUS 2 POUNDS.
But over a five month span
A 44 LBS LOSS.
If I had chosen to look at that as a failure, I wouldn't be standing here....144 lbs now.
Now what was the difference.
I mean...that previous attempt at weight loss...I muffed it...the one in 1999 where I went from 179 to 156....
I muffed it...
If I had a sidebar it would have tracked like the national debt.
WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE!?
The difference was this time I Decided to make it THE TIME.
By the time I started this last time, I was so afraid of failure I told my friend and faceless people on the internet..
I didn't tell my husband, my kids, or my extended family.
Because I had gottten SO excited SO many times before.
I had FAILED so many times before.
I had NO CONFIDENCE...NONE.
I just thank God that when I got on a roll I had nice people cheering me on.
I needed it.
And I am telling YOU.
Whoever YOU ARE.
You can make it.
YOU CAN DO IT.
I am rooting for you.
If I CAN DO IT ANYONE CAN.