It's the red dress 23-7.
Thanks for participating. I spent the last hour picking out my hair do.
What is the special occasion?
Well, I'll tell you, it's going to a nice restaurant with my husband.
It's date night for us.
Why am I putting so much effort in.
A.) I haven't ever before.
not even on my wedding day. I had a sundress...
I picked my flowers from the side of the road.
I didn't appreciate my weight at the time, (138lbs)
I didn't appreciate myself.
I didn't appreciate being a girl.
Doing girly things.
I never have.
All those things most girls do when they are teenagers, I didn't do.
For many reasons.
I was poor, I was at times overweight...
I was afraid of men.
I didn't want to be noticed.
I thought that even if I tried I would not look pretty anyways so what was the point.
I had an idea of what beautiful was and I wasn't it.
B.) We are going to dinner and we are going to meet up with one of tim's old Army buddies.
All his old buddies remember me fat.
This is going to be fun.
C.) Every day for me is a special occasion.
I don't want to miss one.more.day acting like it isn't.
I know people lament the fact that they didn't get it sooner.
Getting healthy, getting their lives together.
But I made a decision to not let regret mar the rest of my life.
I was lucky to catch it at all.
So why sit around wasting time worrying about what I missed.
Do that, and I just miss more.
Somebody asked me to blog about consistency...
how to be consistent.
But, i don't think consistency is the issue...it's a symptom.
To be consistent you need only one thing.
When I say my flip switched ,I mean it switched.
One minute food was it...
it was the most important thing.
The next food was what had kept me from living life to it's full potential.
Food was eating my soul.
That's the best way I can put it.
To get my life back.
Or to get a life I knew was possible, because I could see it all around me..
it was being lived by people a lot shallower and more petty and mean spirited than I.
Was I not intelligent?
Was I not capable?
What was going to stop me?
What is your motivation for losing the weight.
IF it's external...if it's anything outside of yourself and what you want for your life..
I hate to say this, but you will fail.
because the externals change.
You say I want to do it for my kids.
Well, that's great...but it isn't enough.
You really want to do it so you can be a mother that isn't held back by her body.
Your kids will love you either way.
It has to be something YOU WANT.
If you know what you want, and WHY YOU WANT IT..
consistency isn't an issue.
If your consistency is lacking.
Check your motivation.
in under with the cals...and one big ole kick @ss workout puts me in at 700 calories burned baby.
Be back tomorrow...