Man have I had a strange day..
but also a catalyzing day.
Life is short.
too short to d*ck around.
I want my life to represent my beliefs and values.
I want to live my values daily..and apply my energy in a direct and effective manner.
I want to teach my kids how to do this as well.
When I was fat, I was so suppressed in my emotions...I couldn't even come to the realization that there was anything lacking.
Every day was just another day on the treadmill of life.
I had no goals or aspirations for myself..Just for others.
I didn't realize I lacked passion until I saw someone exhibit it.
Then I looked at me and wondered..what do I feel passionate about?!
At that point in my life, I couldn't even tell you my favorite color.
I can now...
I am coming up to a point in life where one of my daughters will be off to college...
I will still have one at home..but life is changing.
I can't cling tightly anymore to what was...I have to move towards what will be.
It's time to find what I am passionate about.
I have three more years of homeschooling..
I don't intend to wait till I am standing in an empty kitchen, listening to the sound of my own echo,
till I start figuring out what that is..
I start now.
I am finishing out the weight loss portion of this in may...not to quit something..
But to really begin maintaining and living.
I want to do my art..
But I also want to help my youngest find what she wants.
It's time to start moving towards, not away from.
That is what all this is really about...
Weight loss is just the beginning...
This challenge isn't about my rules..
It isn't about me at all...except the part where I take part.
This challenge is about YOUR LIFE.
What do you want it to represent?
You have to be who you truly are, to find out what you truly love..
and when you are eating your feelings, and numbing your emotions and ignoring what you body, your mind and your feelings are telling you..
well, pretty hard to know what direction you should travel.
This is about getting what you want in life.
Don't let anything get in your way..