Thank you guys for all the kind comments yesterday.
I was a little nervous about posting it because even though I have said things about myself and my past before, it felt more personal to talk about my 'relationship' with food.
This whole process has been about changing my relationship with food and the world I live in.
When you give up food, it leaves a hole.
You have to start looking around and finding something else to fill that hole.
I have been trying new things in the last ten months.
I have tried exercise, girl scout troop leader, making new friends....
I will be trying my hand at a self defense class this coming Saturday.
There are so many ways my life and the way I function in it have changed, it's hard to quantify.
It's like The Truman Show ...you know, the movie.
There was this reality.
He lived in it, it's all there was.
Then one day he rowed his little boat across the fake ocean...hit the wall and busted through.
Whole new world.
It's like that.
Only you won't know it unless you get in your boat and row.
You have to believe it to see it.
I'll write a longer post tomorrow.
I am bushed.
Hope you all are in your boats and rowing,
hugs to you,