HDC day 3- making the most of what you have

Hey all,
first some to answer some questions...
fage is greek yogurt and vitamin 20 means vitamin = 20 calories lol.
HDC is hundred day challenge to get to a normal bmi.

Now on to the diet and weight loss portion of this blog post.
calories
eggs 3=210 cal.
toast 1= 100 cal.
Total bfast 310

coffee
2 cups with sugar and milk
4T sugar 1/2 cup 2% milk 240 cal.

Lunch
fish stick sandwich
4 fish sticks 220 cal.
2 slices toast 200 cal.
lettuce and tomato 15 cal.
2 T light miracle whip 40 cal.
total lunch 455 cal.

Dinner
5 oz chicken breast 160
1/2 cup stuffing 140
large tossed salad
butter lettuce, cucumbers, bell pepper and tomatoes and red onion with 1 T catalina dressing
approximated 100 cal.
Total dinner 400 cal.

snack 4 crackers with 1 teaspoon butter 98

1503...ooops.
well, will reel it in tomorrow. I am not supposed to go over 1500
Calories burned
stairstepper 330 cal. for 38 minutes
walk 2 miles 200 cal.
Approximate deficit 530 calories.
Not bad.
I get really hungry right after I work out.
I am thinking of cutting my lunch in two and eating half prior to the workout and half after.

So, onto the non weight loss portion.
Amber made an interesting comment on my blog yesterday...
about How I go to the gym looking 'good'.
I do.
So why do I go and not expect to be gawked at...Let's put it that way.
It wasn't a glance. It was a leer.
You ladies know what I am talking about.
There is a way to flatter with a look
and there is a way to make someone feel dirty.
I was wearing a loose fitting shirt with a rounded neck...No cleavage bearing for me.
I want to feel pretty.
So I wear bright, pretty colors.
I put my hair in a nice pony tail or braids.
I don't wear ratty gym clothes.
They are nice and bright.
They are cotton.
I don't spend a fortune, just enough to look decent.
It's for me.

I wear waterproof eyeliner and tinted lip gloss.
I am one of those obnoxious women.
I will tell you why I do it.
I looked like crap for years.
I spent YEARS looking like something the cat dragged in.
I felt old in my twenties.
Here...here's a picture for you.

These pictures were taken a few months apart. The one in the white was my very first start photo... 262 lbs...the one in gray is taken a month or two in by my good freind amber approximately 249 lbs.

See the hair, That was how I wore it...all.the.time.

See the face.

No makeup.

I would wear some for special occasions.

that was all...and special occasions were few and far between.

I didn't pluck my eyebrows.

I didn't buy myself clothes.

I didn't dress up.

You know why?

I didn't think it was worth the effort.

I DIDN'T THINK I WAS WORTH THE EFFORT.

I didn't want to stick out.

I wanted to blend.

All my clothes were gray, black or tan.

some white t shirts but not many.

I wore clothes from my husband's side of the closet.

I will never wear a man's shirt again.

I will never wear pants that stretch at the waist band again.

And I will do my hair before I leave the house, even if it is something as simple as a pony tail.

It will be a done pony.

No hairs sticking out in all directions.

I will pluck my eyebrows...

I will take care of my skin.

I will make the most of what God gave me.

I am no beauty queen...but the way I treated myself like a sack of excrement is nearly criminal.

God doesn't make trash, and he doesn't want me parading around that way.

I will never look like that again.

I don't step out of my house looking like that.

You know why?

I deserve better.

I deserve to feel pretty and powerful.

And so do you.

Even if my pants DO need to be hemmed.

Signing off for the evening.

Hugs,

Chris