The Hundred day challenge...Day 1

Hello guys.
So,
My weight this morning 154.5 lbs.

let's knock out the diet and exercise portion of this blog.
Exercise 3.5 mile walk.
350 calories burned.
Calories consumed.
20 calories vitamin
310 calories 3 eggs and 1 piece of toast
140 calories...1 cup of coffee and 2 sips of a 2nd cup
(That tasted bad and wasn't worth the calories. So I didn't waste the calories.)
240 calories2 servings of chunky vegetable soup
47 calories1 ounce of chicken
245 cal. 1/2 cup shredded Mexican cheese plus 1/8th of a cup

185 cal. 4 ounces 95 percent lean beef
100 cal. 2 la tortilla factory wraps @ 50 cal. ea.
10 cal. 1 T mexican seasoning
100 ounces guacamole
10 1/4 th of a tomato
10 cal. lettuce
20 2 T salsa
Total calorie intake:1437
It's amazing how accurate you can be if you try ;o)...
lol.

Now, onto the next bit
The non weight loss portion of this blog.
I like this eminem and rihannon song.
It is one of the clearest expressions of a disfunctional relationship on the radio, and how people get sucked in.
Speaking of that:
My friend robin over at your daily dose was blogging about choices.
Sometimes, with the benefit of hindsight, we realize we have made some big mistakes.
And when we realize we have made mistakes.
We can benefit from looking at them, examining them and figuring out what we can do differently in the future.
Then,
We let them go.
We drop the weight of guilt, and shame...
Because guilt and shame doesn't benefit us.
it hinders us.
When I talk about digging up your chicken coop...it isn't to revel in the smell...(and it does stink)
and yes, it is to figure out what is the issue, or what the issues are..(in my case, many issues)
And learn from them  so we don't repeat them.
But then...(and here is the most important part)
We Finish them. 
And never bring them up again.
Whatever it takes to finish that part of your existence, of your life...Whatever it takes to open your hand and let it go.
Do it.
Do you have a question you need to ask?
Do you have someone who has no idea how you feel,
Or how you felt.
And without off loading it, it will be stuck in your head and heart forever.
Then off load it.
Because the weight of that thing will sink you.
You have to let go of the past by making peace with it in whatever way will work for you.
Or we will never move forward.
We have to have *wait for it*
Closure
We also have to realize that whatever mistakes were made by others, we don't own.
We don't own their choices, or their feelings, or their mistakes.
Those are not our burden to bear.
So if you are feeling guilty over what you think you could have stopped, or could have prevented.
Stop.
Those mistakes belong to the people who made their own choices.
Those are their experiences to learn and grow from.
I learned a few years ago to let go of the things that I couldn't control.
A number 1....other people.
I don't even try.
I feel much lighter now.
The only person I can control.
Me.
So, day 1 of my 100 days goes into the history books.
Only 99 to go.
A 463 calorie deficit.
Not bad for my first day.
Hugs to you all...
Chris