Back from la la land.
First off, Hanli...I will be bloggin about things that make me happy....tomorrow. Some of them are in this post. But happiness Is a great subject and deserves it's own post.
I felt soooo much better when I got up this morning that the tiredness from yesterday was probably 90 percent mental and 10 percent physical.
I mean I ACHED yesterday.
Joints, muscles, headache...all of it.
I felt tired and worn out.
Allow me to detail about my time off...
It involved many of my favorite things, things which I HAVE NOT had the time for lately.
It involved the movie strictly ballroom (one of my favorites which you can watch in it's entirety on youtube.)
and a big old bar of white chocolate.
It was awesome...
I also had a great dinner...beans and rice and a grilled chicken, bell pepper and onion burrito with tomatillo salsa....
I stopped by Barnes and nobles and perused a biography of Georgia O' Keefe.
I bought the sugar free caramel flavoring from Starbucks to use in my coffee and hopefully lower my overall calorie count.
I have become a bit unbalanced about the way I use my time.
I used to have Saturdays 'off'....not the whole day, but a good part of it.
Increased obligations, my going to the gym....girl scouts, home school etc. Have really lead to the demise of my Saturdays off.
It has also led me to a kind of one note existence..
Which wasn't healthy (in the mental sense).
I used to read...
I haven't sat down to read read in over seven months.
As much as I like romance novels...I like to read things with substance as well.
I could feel my mind atrophy.
In the last two weeks, If I haven't said the word time more than any other word in the English language....I will sell my liver.
Usually in this way.....
I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR...(insert whatever activity here)
It was good putting my workouts first.
I am still doing that to some extent.
But on one saturday a month. I am going to go and have a fun dAY.
And on another, I will go to the gym early and have a light workout and then spend a day with my family.
I need to find some balance.
That being said...I had also got rather happy at my current weight (186)
I know that is atrociously large for some of you...but I assure you...I feel slim comparatively speaking.
I was allowing 'little bites' here and there.
ohhh...you know what I'm talking about...lets just have a taste,
100 extra calories won't matter.
When they do,
When it ALL ADDS UP.
That is why my weight loss has slowed from 10 to 8 lbs per month...
There was Not the same fire in the belly.
Well, I woke up this morning recharged.
When tempted to have a sip out of my daughters cup of milk.
I said no.
When tempted to just 'have a tiny bite' of that chocolate cake my husband baked i said no.
It's the little slips that lead to the downhill slide.
I am back otk.
Welcome to Chrisbodia, day one...year zero.
Your dieting blogger is back.
A little wiser, and a little more balanced.