It's in the Want TO...

Hey all...Today was the last day of the first week of Fatmaggedon.
Six days of exercise under my belt.
Six days of good eating under my belt.
Tomorrow is my first rest day. Wednesdays are girl scout meeting and planning days.
I am keeping my calories tomorrow under 1400.
Today I did 45 minutes on Arnold and burned 500 calories, and have really been wanting to switch things up.
Getting on Christian is like going backwards.
I do need one or two lighter cardio days paired with heavier toning days.
After I got off Arnold, I hopped on a stationary bike for 15 minutes. I went five miles and burned about 107 calories.
It was okay.
Grand total burn was 607 calories.
Then i went upstairs and did my arm workout.
3 sets of 40 shoulder raises with 2.5 lb dumb bells
3 sets of 20 tricep extensions with 5 lb dumb bells
3 sets of 20 bicep curls with 5 lb dumb bells

That was it along with some stretching.

Food
fage yogurt and honey and peaches 310
baked tostitos and salsa 180
5 pretzels 25 cal.
1 and 1/2 cups chicken soup 180 cal.
2 cups of coffee (Iknow, Iknow) 220 cal.
3 fish fillets 360 cal.
15 asparagus spears 62 cal.
3 shrooms 10 cal.
1 T butter 100
Total cals. around 1450 calories
(adding in my head)
Not bad.

I am thinking of taking two workouts per week home.
So tonight I went out and bought 3 lb dumb bells.
I want to buy the Tracy Anderson Mat workout.
I also want to buy the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred.
In the end it could be three days a week a the gym for elliptical and situps
and three days a week at home for major toning and a good walk.
I am going to see which workout I prefer for my body type before settling on an answer.

Now for the title of my post.
I go to the gym 6 days a week, and I have been going now for a few months.
I have noticed a few things.
There are the superfit people. People who are always there when I am there...(and probably a great deal of the time...even when I am not.)
They cardio, they lift, they do the rock wall...you name it...Fitness is a way of life, a hobby, a joy or whatever.
That will never be me, for me this is about using fitness as a tool to improve my life.

Then there are the people who are putting there time in to lose weight.
They are overweight but they get in there and when they are done, they are covered in sweat.
They push, they are there to work.
I count myself among this group...there are three or four of us.
Then there are the people who are there to kill time.
As Jillian would say, they phone it in...literally.
There they are, taking up valuable machinery, peddling at two miles an hour.
They have a magazine propped up in front of the display, leafing through with one hand.
In the other, a cell phone....laugh laugh laugh, talk talk talk.
They are as fat as they were five months ago, when I first came...at 220 lbs.
I am now 188 lbs....(I weigh in tomorrow to have a look see.)
In fact, if I look closely...some of them are FATTER.
They come, waste an hour and then hie off to Mcdonalds afterward.
These are the same people who you hear whining and moaning about how they can't make progress as you walk in the halls.
If you want to make progress, you have to push yourself.
Making sure your sweat doesn't smudge your makeup does no good.
And while your grey and pink outfit is very cute, it would look better if it weren't pulled tightly over the rolls of fat you refuse to work to get rid of, but bemoan constantly.
I have rolls of fat too, but I don't wonder why they are there, I know why...and so do you.
Hoop earings, glitter lip gloss, and matching outfit.
It doesn't make you healthy.
You have to want it.
Many times I am in there and I look up and down those machines and I know with 100 percent surety that I want it more than any other person there.
I am willing to hurt, I am willing to look sweaty and half dead.
I am willing to wear ratty workout gear and to exercise with or without music.
I am not there to pick up men.
I am there for me, for my body, for a better life.
I want it.
I want it more than I have wanted anything in forever.
It's a fire in me. It doesn't get lower...it gets higher every time I go...every time I lose a pound, every time I drop a size.
It's a fire I started, I kindled...one only I can put out.
I want it...DO YOU?
It's in the want to.
Now go out and get it.
Your on fire blogger,
Chris