I went to build a bear today.
I am feeling a bit better...still a little squirrely, but better.
I managed to get down three solid meals and go to build a bear and take a three mile walk.
The whole time I was remembering Sue's shart story and made sure I was near 'facilities'.
Nothing 'bad' happened.
I got an owl from build a bear.
My kids recorded a message for my owl.
I had them shout 'Live deliberately."
I bought my owl a little cheerleading outfit.
pom poms and the whole nine yards.
I named it Hannah Hooter.
There is alot behind the name that I don't want to talk about.
Needless to say, It will keep me focused.
Sophie said she would push the button before bed every night.
It was wonderful to go back there a year later so much healthier.
Now on to the second part of my post.
My childhood wasn't great, but there are things in there that I don't want to lose...
I was listening to a song today on the radio.
Almost home by Craig Morgan...
There are some songs that just hit you in a certain way.
That song is one of those songs.
I remember going swimming down at 8 point lake in cut off jeans and t shirts and then climbing into the back of a pick up and going down to scott's party store to get an ice cream cone...we dried off while we rode.
I can still feel the heat that nearly burned my legs coming off the steel and rubber from the spare tire I always sat on.
The smell of mowed Hay....there is no other smell like it.
Like the smell just before it rains...or just after.
The smell of burning leaves.
The feel of the gravel road under your feet.
And the part where the man says
"Boy if you'd left me alone, right now I'd be fishing."
Gets me everytime.
I used to go and sit and fish for hours...not really fishing.
Then I thought...
just do a whole playlist of songs that kill me.
I dare you to listen to me and little andy by dolly parton and NOT CRY.
I haven't been able to do it yet.
Have a great night guys,