I would like to type...'Have a great night folks!" and have done with it right here..
But you and I both know it isn't that easy.
Somedays it DOES NOT feel worth it.
Somedays it feels worth it but ENDLESS.
Somedays it feels worth it and GLORIOUS.
I have to say, those glorious days take a while.
Even then they are outnumbered by the tedious ones...and the downright crappy ones aren't as numerous as the tedious, but they are all too frequent.
When you first start, it feels impossible.
You have tried before..or maybe you have never really tried...one of those.
You can't imagine your body as anything other than what it currently is...FAT.
Yeah you have been in shape, in the shape of an ellipse...
But never have you felt the wind whip through your hair as you were running, or cycling. The only wind you have felt was as you rolled down your car window pulling through the drive thru.
You have stared in envy as the size 8 in front of you complains about her "tummy pudge'.
All the while desperately staring down, hoping to catch a glimpse of your toes.
The worst part, (if you were as fat as I was...or are as fat as I once was) is to go around exercising and eating right for almost 5 months and still be considered fat enough to mock or condescend to.
Cause when you are 262 lbs and 5 '3 inches tall...and then are 205 lbs and 5'3 inches tall people still assume you want ranch on that, or that you don't exercise.
Cause you are feeling pretty good.
It's enough to make you want to quit.
For a second.
Then you remember what it was like before you started.
At least now, even if no-one else respects you..you respect yourself.
And you have lost 5, 10 or 20 lbs.
It adds up.
Saying no to that pizza is hard.
So is living your life with no sense of accomplishment.
Feeling crappy because you can't seem to control this one area of your life.
That is harder.
In the end.
Because in the end we all come to an end.
We want to look back and feel like we lived the life we were supposed to live, not the life we settled for.
An oreo isn't worth it.
No food tastes as good as self respect feels.