Thanks to everyone who stopped by to leave a comment. I am always touched by how much support I recieve from everyone. It has made this whole thing easier. It has kept me on track, because not only do I not want to let myself down..I don't want to come on here and let you guys down.
It gives me a lot of motivation.
I wallowed for a day.
But not how you might imagine.
Yesterday, After I dropped that post, I hit the gym.
Where I upped the difficulty and burned 750 calories in 65 minutes.
Then I did 210 situps (these are finally starting to get easier..
Then I did 3 sets of 12 lower back extensions (35 lbs).
3 sets of 12 lat pulls (45 lbs).
3 sets of 12 tripcep extensions (30 lbs).
and 3 sets of 12 flies (30 lbs).
I ate 1450 calories.
It feels good to have reached a major goal.
Someone mentioned in comments...Tammy
Asked if I am ever overcome by the emotion of it...
I wish I could be.
I have never been made that way. I don't know if It was how I was raised...
But getting me to cry is a rare thing.
I have cried maybe ten times in my life...really cried.
When my brother was diagnosed with a terminal illness (it took me a day for it to sink in)
When I miscarried.
When I heard the heart beats of both of my children
When my marriage hit a particularly bad spot.
Once when I was convinced I was fat forever, and I just 'couldn't do it'....( about a year before I did)
Once when someone called me a liar when I wasn't.
When my grandma died.
The last time my husband went to Iraq.
I didn't the first three times.
That and the last scene of the notebook...and the passion of the christ.
I have moments where I feel kind of surreal.
like when I was at the gym a week ago and spotted someone behind me..
then realized it was me.
I didn't recognize myself.
I stood there staring trying to get used to the 'new me'.
It was diametrically opposed to what happened 11 months ago...when I looked up and saw a fat woman.
Then realized is was me.
I thought I might get choked up.
But I have this voice that kind of kinks up any sentimental notions I have.
It always says..."okay, knock it off princess, time to ________.'
in this case, work out.
In the case of hitting one hundred pounds lost it says...
"Okay princess, lets do what we came for....it's time to go for goal."
So, onward and downward.
No time for screwing around.
30 lbs and life to go.
Hope everyone has their big boy/girl panties on and are ready to go!