4.19.2010

Well, that was fun.

Hey all,
Thanks to everyone who stopped by to leave a comment.  I am always touched by how much support I recieve from everyone.  It has made this whole thing easier. It has kept me on track, because not only do I not want to let myself down..I don't want to come on here and let you guys down.
It gives me a lot of motivation.
I wallowed for a day.
But not how you might imagine.
Yesterday, After I dropped that post, I hit the gym.
Where I upped the difficulty and burned 750 calories in 65 minutes.
Then I did 210 situps (these are finally starting to get easier..
Then I did 3 sets of 12 lower back extensions (35 lbs).
3 sets of 12 lat pulls (45 lbs).
3 sets of 12 tripcep extensions (30 lbs).
and 3 sets of 12 flies (30 lbs).

I ate 1450 calories. 
It feels good to have reached a major goal.
Someone mentioned in comments...Tammy
Asked if I am ever overcome by the emotion of it...
I wish I could be. 
I have never been made that way.  I don't know if It was how I was raised...
But getting me to cry is a rare thing.
I have cried maybe ten times in my life...really cried.
 When my brother was diagnosed with a terminal illness (it took me a day for it to sink in)
When I miscarried.
When I heard the heart beats of both of my children
When my marriage hit a particularly bad spot.
Once when I was convinced I was fat forever, and I just 'couldn't do it'....( about a year before I did)
Once when someone called me a liar when I wasn't.
When my grandma died.
The last time my husband went to Iraq.
I didn't the first three times.
That and the last scene of the notebook...and the passion of the christ.
That's it.
I have moments where I feel kind of surreal.
like when I was at the gym a week ago and spotted someone behind me..
then realized it was me.
I didn't recognize myself.
I stood there staring trying to get used to the 'new me'.
It was diametrically opposed to what happened 11 months ago...when I looked up and saw a fat woman.
Then realized is was me.
I thought I might get choked up.
But I have this voice that kind of kinks up any sentimental notions I have.
It always says..."okay, knock it off princess, time to ________.'
in this case, work out.
In the case of hitting one hundred pounds lost it says...
"Okay princess, lets do what we came for....it's time to go for goal."
So, onward and downward.
No time for screwing around.
30 lbs and life to go.
Hope everyone has their big  boy/girl panties on and are ready to go!
Hugs,
Chris  

16 comments:

Julie, The Accidental Fat Chick said...

You've read my blog enough to know I wear my heart on my sleeve when it comes to my emotions. But when it comes to losing weight and being healthy, I'm more like you... I don't get all emotional about it. There are definitely surreal moments... like not recognizing myself in a mirror right away & having people I've known for years introduce themselves to me like I'm a stranger... but I've yet to shed a tear.

My big girl panties are on... though they are not nearly as big as they once were, lol. :-)

Seth said...

Hey - I didn't know that about your brother. Sorry to hear that. My sister was diagnosed with small cell cervical cancer and 46 days later she passed away from it. It was quite the tough time for us too. that was a few years ago now and it does stick with me in the back of my mind telling me to do everything that I can do to be healthy.

I love that you just kept working out once you hit your goal. That's just awesome.

snoconegirl said...

hey i have my big girl panties on..im ready to go right along with ya..we will get it off together..im sure sorry about the times you had to cry...i am a crier..i get emotional all the time..i wish i didnt..have a good night..kelli

outdoor.mom said...

oh wow! you look SO INCREDIBLE :-) you are such an inspiration to us all!!

The_Exquisite_Christine said...

Tell Sophie I like that quote too.

And I hope to be right at your heels for the next 30 lbs. *wanders off in search of my big girl panties, totally gonna lay them out to put on in the morning*

Linda Pressman said...

Well, even if YOU'RE so macho, Chris, you brought a tear to my eyes when you contrasted those two images in the mirror that you didn't recognize - the fat one and now the normal-sized one.

Let yourself look. Be amazed.

MrsFatass said...

Yeah, I'm looking at my big girl panties right now. Which is why I'm hitting the gym even though I feel like nursing this cold/bronchitis one more day. Gonna do something light just to get the heart pumping.
(then I may go back to bed)

Sean Anderson said...

I really admire your high gear approach to the last 30---I can so relate---You inspire me my friend.
Like you, I have to do double takes every now and again---when I catch my reflection in a mirror or window---it's strange isn't it? That's us---and it's so different. This is how people see us? Our brains will catch up soon...it must take time.

My best always
Sean

dani31608 said...

I'm now demanding that my inner voice call me "Princess", too! =)

Big girl panties? CHECK!

Alix said...

210 situps?

I ache just from thinking about it. Oh Chris... the fact that you can even DO that is inspiring to me. But it seems so outrageously excessive. Why so many?

Pretty soon we're going to be able to bounce a cannon ball off your abs. And what pretty abs they are!

Helen said...

I never cried much either. Until I started going through menopause. Now I have days where it's like a faucet has been turned on. Darn hormones!

Sandra said...

Oh frick I cry. I can tear up at the stupidest things. It's really annoying sometimes. When my kids were growing up, we would watch movies, and my kids would always make fun of me because I always needed a box of kleenex. I even cried watching "How to Train Your Dragon" a couple of weeks ago - in the THEATRE - sick I tell ya, I'm just sick !!!
And for you... you just aren't that type and that is why (I think) you have done such a fantastic job. I'm not saying I'm a sissy - cause I'm not, just easily sentimental - but you! You are one determined lady and you get what needs to be done - DONE! I mean look--- 210 sitps - I'd cry :)

Shae said...

Commercials make me cry. lol. I think as I get older...I get more emotional. Having my son has made me more emotional. I have so much to be thankful for that it just overwhelms me sometimes. I don't even want to talk about how big my panties are...But, I got them on! lol.

K. said...

All very good reasons to cry...
Bet you love Big girls don't cry by Fergie? lol.
I love your posts, thank you so much for sharing so much with us. K.
my blog: www.it-is-time.com

Tammy said...

Yeah, that whole crying thing is a curse, trust me, lol. You sound a lot like my sister Brandy. She never cries either...I've always been so jealous of that, lol.

dude...about those sit-ups. I can't even do one if I'm on the floor or a decline bench. The only way I can do them is on a stability ball, and I don't really count those as real sit-ups, because they simply feel too easy. I want to be able to do them from the floor. Is that where you do them? And do you put your toes under something sturdy, or not use anything at all to stabilize yourself? You are my sole inspiration for learning how to do those damn things...my abs are so flabby and weak and mushy and gross....I want to change that. Stop by and visit me...I need some advice! :)

Rettakat said...

I was thinking... do you WANT to be more in touch with all of your emotions? If so, i wonder if shedding the last 30 will help move you in that direction, if it's a thing you want??

Didn't guys used to wear BVD'S?
Well, us Weight Loss Warriors wear BGP'S!
;-)
Loretta
=^..^=