What I really should have said with yesterdays post.
This is why I shouldn't write when I am fuzzy.
I will give two examples.
You want to go to california...
You get in the car and take off...
without looking at a map or even where your destination is...
You are going to have problems.
The very, very least you can do is look at a map of the us and decide to head west...
California is a big state.
You will probably hit it at some point.
That is what setting a calorie cap and exercising daily will do for you.
I read a story yesterday about people who had lost massive amounts of weight,
They had gotten down to 'thin'.
Then they were disappointed because their lives didn't magically transform into fairyland.
One woman wrote "I was still a fat girl, in a thin girl's body."
Which leads me to believe that perhaps fat is more a mental state than a physical one.
Don't get me wrong...fat is obviously a physical manifestation.
But You get my point.
She had gastric bypass.
She lost a ton of weight.
She still felt the same.
I don't think that is where we all want to go.
Different body, same destination.
The thing is, I am not done losing yet, and I am a totally different person.
I think I do need to go back and reread my posts.
But When I started my thoughts were
"I am too smart to be stuck this fat'.
'If that bimbo can be thin, what is stopping me?"
I didn't JUST want to be thin.
I wanted to experience life.
I didn't want to be afraid of trying new things anymore.
I didn't want to stand in the back and stay out of the way anymore.
I didn't want to be judged solely on my appearance anymore.
I finally realized that people believe what they see.
I finally realized that people like, respect and admire people who like, respect and admire themselves.
My destination wasn't just thin.
It was life.
So what I am saying is...
Know what it is you are shooting for.
You may not want to be super fit.
Just healthy enough to enjoy daily activities.
You may be shooting for size 14...
You may be shooting to run in a 10 K and to fit in a parachute harness.
Set a Goal..Set a destination.
Know what you want.
It will make it a lot easier to hit the mark.
If you know where you are headed, and WHY you are going,
It will make saying no to fatty foods easier.
Because instead of seeing what you're missing,
You can see what you are one step closer to gaining.
I wanted to gain control over my body.
I wanted just once, to look at my body as a product of my efforts,
and be proud of what I created.
I want to never again (unless it's outside of my control) be subject to a body that is too sickly to enjoy life.
I want my body to be a help, not a hindrance.
That is what I am aiming for.
You have to let go of what you have to grab on to what you want:
What's one of the easiest ways to catch a monkey?
Put peanuts in a jar, and tie the jar to a tree, then wait. Before too long, a monkey will come along, notice the jar, and go over to check it out. Seeing and smelling the peanuts, he'll reach in his hand and grab a fist-full.
Since his hand is in a fist and is full of peanuts, it will not fit through the mouth of the jar, so his hand will be stuck he won't be able to get his hand out of the jar that is tied to the tree.
The monkey will let himself be caught by the hunter rather than let go of the peanuts.
Is the monkey afraid? Yes. He'll be screaming and trying his best to get away. But he knows he has something good and pleasant in his grasp, and he is determined to take that good thing with him as he runs away or TRIES to run away.The monkey does not understand that letting go of the peanuts is the only way to save himself.
There is no choice about letting go of the food.
That is what I meant.
You can't keep the same relationship with food.
You have to let it go.
You have No choice.
After that decision, the choices are endless....the possibilities limitless. But if you don't let go of the food...you will stay stuck.